Borderline Book



Borderline is a journey of Amrita Srivastava. It is the journey of her mind, her being her soul. The book starts with Amrita's background birth and family history. It shows the underlying currents of a loving close knit family and how the family splits apart due to a ghastly divorce which affects Amrita mentally.

Thereon Amrita is completely dependant on her father and she worships him. Upon moving to America for further studies Amrita falls in love, due to her dependence and growing insecurities, the relationship does not work. Amrita comes to India on a vacation only to find her father dead the next morning. This event in her life shatters her forever. She cannot move past her father's death, although her mother remarries, Amrita is hellbent on finding love which in turn makes her obsessed with the men that come in her life leading upto a mental breakdown.

When Amrita moves back to India she again gets obsessed with another guy but it ends quickly. She is forced to move into her mothers house and she struggles to make a connect with them. Amrita find liberation and freedom when she gets involved with a married man named “Pink”, who is the only man who understands her mind and her wavering emotions.

When her best friend writes a horrible book on her Amrita has another mental breakdown and goes to a psychiatrist who diagnoses her with Borderline Personality Disorder.

From thereon Amrita tries to heal herself and goes to regular therapy. Things seem to look up but when she meets and forms a bond with another woman diagnosed with the same disorder who eventually commits suicide. Amrita becomes psychotic and is taken to a rehabilitation facility. When she comes back from rehab, Amrita has an internal awakening and she confronts her demons and her past by having an internal debate with herself. She reaches catharsis and she makes a career for herself in writing.

This is the synopsis of the book, and although it is not a woman centric book as many men are also diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, this book takes the readers on an emotional journey into the mind of a borderline.


BORDERLINE Personality Disorder

There have been several debates and a number of conflicts over the name of this disorder. BPD is hugely stigmatized, and its name has been vastly criticized by patients, psychiatrists and psychologists. Some also call this ailment emotional dysregulation personality disorder.

As per the Diagnostic and Statistical manual of mental disorders, published by the American Psychiatric Association. There are ten types of personality disorders and they are divided into clusters. Borderline personality disorder comes in cluster b—the dramatic, emotional and erratic group. The essential features of the disorder are instability of self image, instability in interpersonal relationships, instability of mood, identity disturbance over friends, goals and work. These features, when they become a pattern and a pervasive one at that, they make up a disorder. Apart from these features, borderline personality disorder has nine criteria, and one has to have at least five of the nine criteria to be diagnosed with the disorder.

The nine criteria are:

- Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment
- Unstable interpersonal relationships, characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation
- Identity disturbance or unstable self-image: most borderlines are extremely sensitive people; their emotion barrier is almost nonexistent. Children or infants have better self-defensive techniques then borderlines.
- Impulsivity that is potentially self-damaging
- Suicidal behavior, and recurrent self-harm
- Chronic feelings of emptiness: most of these symptoms are interlinked and one symptom gives birth to or encourages the other.
- Persistent reactivity of mood: intense episodic dysphoria, which is a long-lasting, profound dissatisfaction with life.
- Inappropriate intense anger
- Transient stress related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms: it is a sense of being detached from oneself.